Who Wrote That?

So I journal a lot – obsessively at times. Seriously, my room is littered with notebooks, some full, some half-full, some practically empty because I started writing in them and then forgot they existed. I’m in the process of going through a journal that I wrote in during one of the most difficult years of my life. Lots of changes, lots of heartbreak, it’s not really a happy read.

I’m sitting here reading and laughing and crying – because I remember these things. I remember being excited when I got hired for a second part-time job. I remember being angry because my body all of a sudden decided it could no longer digest wheat (seriously – what the heck?).

I remember the day my grandma died and I remember barely being able to see my pen and paper because tears were streaming down my face. I remember sitting in my room and writing out my frustrations to a God that I wasn’t even sure existed.

I’ve said this a million times and I’ll say it a million more: if you don’t journal, you should start. It’s seriously one of the most rewarding things in the world to be able to look back on your life and see how far you’ve come. To see how God used your past heartaches and struggles to break you down and then build you back up into something that was so much stronger than before.

The last entry in this particular journal was dated April 10, 2013.

“Jesus, thank you for the reminder that You are so much bigger than my circumstances. It’s so comforting to know that my sin does not and will never outweigh Your mercy! Thank you for the reminder that this world, this life is only just the beginning! Send me out, Lord! May I be a tool used only by Your hands and for Your glory. Jesus, equip me, prepare me for what you have in store for my life. Help me to show You to those who would have no other means of encountering You! Help me to be more than my Facebook statuses – I want my life to scream Your name! Intervene on my behalf, Lord, build me up into a mighty soldier for Your kingdom! And relinquish me of anything that hinders me from shining Your light everywhere I go.”

I don’t remember writing that. But I’m glad I did. I just find it so ridiculously encouraging to read about how God came through for me over and over and over again. And I find it super awesome to think that He knew, even as I was writing that, that I would read it today and be encouraged.

I haven’t prayed like that in a long time.. Seriously, who wrote that? Some silly 19 year old who had no idea just how encouraging her words would become to her less than a year later.


Super Powers

My dad wrote this awhile back. Some thoughts on super heroes and such (our family is nerdy). This is seriously one of the best things I’ve read in a long time. It’s lengthy, but I promise if you take the time to read it, you won’t regret it!

Super Powers

This morning I was listening to the radio and heard something that got me thinking.  I remembered a conversation I had with my kids.  Having recently watched one of the many super hero movies that are in abundance these days, we were talking about super powers.  If you could choose one, what would it be?  What would be the best?  Flying?  Strength?  Invisibility?

(For the record, I would choose teleportation…..seriously how can you beat that?)

I remember a time when there weren’t 40 super hero movies available.  I remember when Christopher Reeves starred in Superman.  Now, there’s a dude who just can’t be beat.  He has multiple super powers, he’s undefeatable.  If worse comes to worst he can fly fast enough around the Earth to turn back time and try again!  Nobody could ever beat him.  Oh but wait, I just remembered this one guy, from the movie Watchmen: Dr. Manhattan.  He has control over the physical structure of matter.  He can manipulate matter with his mind.  Even Super Man would pale in comparison to such a power!  The Dr. could just look at Superman and…disassemble him.  Maybe Dr. Manhattan is the ultimate super hero.  (I still think teleportation would be a lot more fun though..)

What kind of super hero would it take to defeat Dr. Manhattan?  This dude would have to be off-the-charts powerful!  I mean, Dr. Manhattan’s power is God-like.  How could anyone ever top that?  Any super hero that could beat him would have to have the power of GOD!

Well there was this one guy……  He had lots of powers.  He always used his powers for the benefit of others.  He wasn’t a showoff and never did any “super stuff” to impress.  Because of this modest attitude, those who witnessed His super deeds had no clue as to what He was really capable of.  Most never realized that the things He would do were just a drop in the bucket.  He did small things like turn water to wine, multiply fish and bread by thousands, heal the sick, command the wind and waves, raise the dead; you know, just another day.  He had the courage to tell the truth always, even knowing it would get Him killed!  Always standing up for the little guy, His mission – save the world! He would sacrifice himself.  He would die for all of us.

With all those powers, He could only be killed if He LET them kill Him!  Think about that…….  They didn’t know what He could really do.  Even as they drove the nails into His flesh, He had an army at his command.  I imagine that army may have been eagerly longing for His command to come to his aid.  And what an awesome army!   Ah, but He had other plans.  Besides, he didn’t need an army of angels.  The words of his mouth, even His thoughts would have been enough to save Him.  That’s the power He wields!  He could have stopped them but he went through with the plan.  He called his Father’s name, and He died.

It seemed that even the Earth itself mourned His passing, falling into darkness.  Did they begin to realize then?  As the sky grew black, did they realize that He really was who He said He was?  Was he really the son of God?  Had they killed the son of God?  He couldn’t be the son of God, or He would have saved Himself right?  Did He really die?  Yeah, He did.  Just like He said He would!  He also raised Himself from the dead!  Just like He said He would!  Only GOD has such power.  Only God!  How did he do it?

HE IS GOD!  (John 8:58)

This man, Jesus, was God incarnate.  The one and only God who SPOKE everything we see around us into being!  What now Dr. Manhattan?!  God walked with us for a time on this Earth, as a man.  And this man, Jesus, was walking around with the supernatural power of GOD!  Think about that.  The most awesome, powerful, wonderful man that ever lived.  The greatest super hero EVER.  None can compare.  You can’t dream up a super hero that would even hold a candle to Him.  And the funny thing is, this guy really lived…..and lives STILL.  WOW!

He’s not some character in the latest Hollywood movie.  He is real.  He is alive!  He is in your corner rooting for you and loving you.  Even when you ignore Him, He waits patiently for you to call on Him.  He stands with arms open wide.  The most powerful man who ever lived.  And He wants a relationship with YOU.  He knows you.  He knows every single thing about you, good and bad, even down to the number of hairs on your head!  And still He loves you.  He loves you so much that He laid down his life for you.

And you need to know that even with all those powers, he DREADED what was to come.  He was a man.  And HE absolutely dreaded it.  He would have to be separated from His father.  He would have to be separated from God.  He dreaded it so much that He literally sweat blood while praying about it in the garden!  Think about that!  Have you ever been that upset?  Has ANYONE ever been that upset?  I seriously doubt it.  He was that upset, and still…………He died for you.  Willingly!  Because He loves you THAT MUCH!

What got me thinking about all this?  Like I said at the beginning, it was something on the radio, it was on K-Love. It was a line from a song I heard this morning that said “awestruck by the sound of your name.”  It just stuck in my head.  I couldn’t stop thinking about that line.  I should be awestruck by the sound of His name!  He is so much more than a super hero with super powers.  He is the one and only holy GOD and His power is unimaginable!  Unfathomable!!  I know who He is and in my limited human understanding I know what He can do, but I guess I….I don’t know…..forget sometimes?  How do I do that?  The greatest character in the greatest story ever told.  The most awesome, powerful, wonderful man who ever lived.  Why am I not awestruck by the sound of His name every time I hear it?  I should be…..

If some guy came into the spotlight today with the ability to fly, everyone on Earth would know his name.  We would be in awe at the mention of his name and the knowledge of what he can do.  And he would be just a man, just some guy with one measly super power.  Isn’t that interesting?

Remember, Jesus is God.  He was there every step of the way.  Long before He was born, He was there!  There are some astounding super powers displayed in the bible.  Through the power of God, and therefore Jesus (don’t forget the Holy Spirit), these awesome events took place.  Not in a movie, but here, on Earth, in real life!  It’s so amazing to think about.  And sadly, sometimes it’s so easy to forget.  Let’s try to remember….these aren’t just stories or fairy tales.  This stuff really happened.

What an awesome God!

Supernatural power is displayed in the bible over and over and over again.  Such amazing stories, such amazing people and such unimaginable POWER!  Dr. Manhattan……bow before the King.

  • Exodus 7: 10-12                 Moses, Aaron & their magic staff
  • Judges 14: 5-6                    Samson & the lion
  • Judges 15: 15-16               Samson kills 100 with a jawbone
  • Judges 16:17-30                Samson destroys the temple
  • Mark 4: 35-41                     Jesus commands the wind & waves
  • II Kings 2: 23-24                 Elisha calls bears to his defense
  • Numbers 16: 23, 31-33   Do not question the Lord your God!

I Don’t Know What to Name My First Blog Post

Waddup Blogosphere!

Hi, I’m Chelsey.

I love reading blogs and I love to write. So, SURPRISE, I made a blog.

So I’m a Public Relations major, graduating in the spring of 2015 (probably…maybe).

Since the summer of 2007, I’ve been walking (and running and slipping and sliding and sometimes painfully falling) with Christ at my side and have found in Him a relationship that compares to nothing else I’ve ever known.

Some things I love: Jesus, coffee, sunsets, and the occasional hug.

Some things I don’t love: Missouri weather, wrinkled clothes, and the common cold.

Basically, I’m a very ordinary girl, with very ordinary thoughts and a desire to share them.

If I’m being honest, I’m slightly (um, completely) out of my comfort zone here. The thought of allowing my personal opinions and musings to be publicly posted and subjected to the world’s criticism is not at all appealing to me. But since I estimate that about 5 people will actually read this, I’m not really that concerned.

The process of creating this blog was surprisingly stressful. I mean, I hadn’t even thought about a name. And then all of a sudden, WordPress is like, “Name your blog, fool.” And my brain’s like, “What, no.”

So after staring at the screen for a good ten minutes, and then getting up to grab some coffee, and then sitting back down and staring at the screen some more , I remembered something – a Bible verse.

Revelation 3:2

“Wake up! Strengthen what remains and is about to die, for I have found your deeds unfinished in the sight of my God.”

How in the world does this relate to blogs, you ask? I’ll tell you.

It was about 5 weeks ago. I was sitting among 30,000 people listening to Francis Chan preach at a conference in Kansas City. I hadn’t even planned on being there that night, but for lack of anything better to do, I joined some friends and traveled to the city.

Honestly, I wasn’t paying much attention to what he had to say until he began talking about spiritual dryness. I specifically remember him saying, “Sometimes, it’s so easy to fake it.”

Growing distant from Christ is something I’m really good at. I get so easily distracted by the most meaningless things. And then, before I know it, my Bible starts gathering dust and my prayer life becomes virtually non-existent. And the farther I stray from Christ, the harder I have to work to keep up appearances, to look like a good Christian girl should look.

And while I’m so busy keeping up appearances, I forget about God. I forget about the Man who bore my sin and my shame on a cross that was meant for me.

Sometimes, it’s so easy to fake it.

Alright, Francis Chan, you have my attention.

He reads Revelation 3:2.

“Wake up! Strengthen what remains and is about to die, for I have found your deeds unfinished in the sight of my God.”

He explains the relevance of this verse in true Francis Chan style. You can post a spiritually-inspiring Facebook status; you can tweet 140 characters about God; you can attend church every Sunday and even lift your hands in praise. But you cannot hide your disparity and wretchedness from a Holy, All-Knowing God.

“If I asked your friends to describe you, to illustrate the essence of who you are, what would they say? Now, if I asked God to do the same thing, would those answers be the same?”

No. They wouldn’t be. Because no matter how hard I try to act like someone who has it all together, God knows the truth.

The second I realized that looking like a good Christian girl was more important to me than actually being one, I felt sick. I was no longer worshipping Christ; I was worshipping Christianity. You know what that’s called? Idolatry.

Hold the phone. My knees hit the floor so hard they’re probably still bruised. Guilt covered every inch of me. Idolatry? When I cried out to my Creator that night, He didn’t rebuke me or turn His face from mine. He simply said, “Beloved, strengthen what remains…”

Neglecting the reality of my desperate need for Christ is, without a doubt, one of the worst things I can do to myself. I need to get out my own way – abandon the feeble attempts to prove my worth to the world and rest in the reality that Christ knows my worth better than anyone. After all, who could possibly love me more than the one who created me?!

How dumb is it to think that I could ever appear good apart from Christ, that I could ever achieve strength apart from Christ? The only thing about a Christian woman that makes her “strong” is the God who dwells within her.. And the God who dwells within me is pretty freaking strong.

So, let’s see, what does this have to do with blogs? Um, nothing I suppose.

But it has a whole lot to do with me. And through this season of being broken down, molded and shaped into something new, this just seems like a perfect place to start.

…and alllll of that to explain how my blog got its name. You’re welcome.